Today’s run workout was supposed to be a 4-mile run with 15 minute “tempo step ups.” I’ve never really understood what that means. With a one-mile warm-up and cool-down, that leaves two miles. Fifteen minutes of a relatively fast pace is more than a mile. I think today is the day I decided to give up on that workout – in the future, when it shows up on the schedule, I’ll do cadence intervals or hills.
I’d created a workout which I sent to the 910. Unfortunately, I got the target cadence wrong and I told the 910 my cadence should be half what I wanted. I didn’t realize this until after the mile warm-up. I tried creating a workout on the fly, but it didn’t work well. Trying to run at a faster-than-average pace for fifteen minutes was too much. After a bit, I chucked the idea of doing a run and I finished the four miles by walking.
It bothered me that I wasn’t up for this run. But I feel like I’m still a little behind in sleep, and I want to get up at 5:30 tomorrow to swim. I then decided to re-frame the issue: I am tired. I need a break. I will take this break and be ready for this weekend’s 10-mile endurance pace run.
Last summer, I was overtraining. I didn’t recognize the signs – I thought I was just being lazy. If I’m going to train for the Badger Mountain Challenge 50 km I need to learn to recognize signs of overtraining. I know the first mile of every run sucks, but it usually gets better. If I’m not “feelin’ it,” my default assumption should not be that I’m lazy or unmotivated. I need to respect what’s going on with this 50-year old, forty-pound overweight body. Pushing myself too hard won’t help, and in the long run, it’ll ruin my season.
I also need to trust myself. I joke about being lazy and motivated because I’ve seen how easily I talk myself into bad decisions or out of good ones. But I need to give myself some credit. I’m determined. I’ve talked myself into a hundred times more workouts than I’ve talked myself out of. I’m motivated enough to not make excuses and skip training just because “I doan wanna.” I’ve made a LOT of progress over the past few years, and I’m excited to keep moving forward. That’s not lazy or unmotivated – that’s powerful!